Again after another year!

GEEZ! It seems like every year I seem to remember that I have a blog! LOL ! I cannot believe it take me this long to write on here! Well it has been a year or so and I am now 25!! AHH! How has time come and gone! But I can honestly say that I am feeling better than I have been in the past years! I do admit that their has been days when I do not feel so well but overall it has been more good days than bad days!

As I continue through my battle with anxiety and depression I know that the devil is fighting so hard to see me defeated because God has great thing in store for me! I know that God is trying to teach me so many things and one of them is to depend on him always! I must admit that I am/was one of those people that when things are tough I always pray but when life is not so tough I tend to forget to give thanks!

Recently I am going through a financial struggle where I might get my main source of income taken away permanently and I cannot help but wonder what God is trying to teach me. And I talk to God and ask (complain) why this is happening to me and with my conviction I hear him telling me You depend more on this money than me! You trust this source of income more than me! And actually a couple of days before I had heard the bad news I remember being in my brothers room and thinking in my head I don’t need anything I have this great source of income! And well aren’t we so silly!

As I am going through this struggle I know that the life I was living was not ok! Financially I was just buying stuff to fill my hole (insecurities) just to have that feel good moment. And well I can definitely say that my husband was not happy with my spending habits. Why is it that when we go through a struggle we can see things we were doing in the past so clearly such a mistake? But I am honestly praying that God give me wisdom to make the right choices and to give me maturity! But I ask of you to help me pray and God’s will be done!

Philippians 4:19 “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”

Until Next Time!



P.S. I will be on here more instead of spending time and money on eBay!



Getting into the habit

Good morning! So I’m wanting to start getting into the habit of writing here daily. I know that with discipline and great determination I will be able to accomplish this. Right now I do have lot more free time on my hands considering that I’m done with school and my son doesn’t get out of school till the first week of June. So you will be seeing a lot of me!

Normally during this time I chose to watch TV and catch up on my favorite shows. But what better to spend time writing about what goes on in my life and let that be my sort of outlet. And also and most importantly spend time reading and meditating in God’s word.

Every morning after I drop off my son I read a devotional. But I am also trying to make a habit out of morning prayer (I do thank God every morning when I wake up), but I want to have a quiet 10 min prayer.

So I have made a goal so I can continue with my growing! Let me know of a spiritual goal you are accomplishing in the comments section.

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”

Philippians 4:13 NIV

Till next time!